|longest yet worthwhile day in history
||[Oct. 31st, 2007|11:03 pm]
I woke up into today thinking it would be another long lasting,tiring,cold, take care of sick kayleigh day...
and i was right.
lately she has been so sick. Constant diarrhea, vomiting, runny nose...not being able to hold solids OR liquids down..
~so we ended up taking her to the ER. Stomach Flu. They gave her some kinda medicine that made her not have those symptoms anymore so i finally got her to eat...
strangely enough today My sister texts me the oddest thing that made my heart fall down to my stomach...
she told me Ronnie ( my sperm donor) had a myspace.
I had to check this shit out for myself. and sure enough, he does.
the fucking asshole is so fucking sick in the head, wanna know what he put in his "heroes" section?
"my dad, he taught me how to be a man..."
first off, FUCK you ronnie for even being alive.You are the epitomy of what is wrong with the world, all seven deadly sins, the fucking devil himself and a bad name for humankind!
fuck your fucking god damn sin that you lived out 23 years ago you fucking procreating sick bastard. How fucking DARE you have the fucking nerve to write that your dad was your heroe?? Did you really admire his flaws all that much trhat you wish you could be just like him?? seriously? Why the fuck arent you even dead yet? you have hepotitus c from sticking your diseased cock into so many random bitches..you could only be so lucky.
why god put someone on this earth like you is beyond me, and why he didnt allow your penis to become covered in sars and fall off is another question i will never know.
_------>I fucking hate the word "hate". yes, its a oxymoron..but the only person i have ever truly hated in my life time (not even carmen came close) was my fucking god damned biological father. his heroe. struck my fucken heart so hard, a thousand daggers wouldnt even have done an equil amount of justice on it.
then i find out I have 14 year old HALF sister named Haleigh, Another half sister whose 18, a 27 year old brother names mark, a ten month old brother named tyler, and another brother whose name wasnt disclosed to me..
all from different mama's
DOES ANYONE ELSE SEE SOMETHING FUCKED UP WITH THIS???
my point of a male whore if i say so myself..
its cool knowing i have other siblings..
but not cool knowing he couldve done the same shit to them..and i fear for them..
no words can describe or even become close to fathom the shit i have learned today or to explain how i feel. because even I dont know.
what the fuck do i do?
i am all for getting to know them, they are part of my family..
but i dont want to push them away because they came from the same sperm, which i hate so much, as i did...
what a fucking day!!!